I’ve dedicated 2014 to brushing up on my storytelling skills and learning how to produce radio quality audio stories. Though my work is still amateur, at best, I’m learning a lot. Yes, about my new equipment, but mostly about being human. Which is why I got into all of this in the first place.
Over the past few weeks I’ve been working on a multimedia project about fear through the Transom Online Workshop. We have so many fears — little stinging bugs, disappointing ourselves, missing the bus, losing our job, failing a big test, getting Alzheimers. One guy told me,
“I’m scared of poverty. What if things get so bad I don’t even have enough calories to have sex?”
After talking to over twenty people (which I know doesn’t qualify as a proper sample size), there seems to be a theme:
I’m scared — and so are you.
Of course we are. Things can be pretty dark sometimes.
Take my fear, for example: I’m consistently afraid my partner is going to leave me. I don’t think it’s actually going to happen — and my love assures me it won’t — but I’m still scared. I recently heard someone say that the first five years of his marriage were about managing this very fear; he came from a dysfunctional family too.
I can’t tell you how much good it did me to hear him say this.
I think it helps knowing we’re not alone — or crazy.
So, tell me, what are you afraid of?
“Someone recently tried to kill me. I’m not ready to die. I still have regular American Pie stuff I wanna do, you know — house, car, soccer practice.”
January 19, 2014
“What am I afraid of? Not owning—not owning my life.”
January 25, 2014
“We were doing our first sleepover as big girls … and then I felt something walking on the bed.”
Vania Shantz Gutierez
February 2, 2014