There was a lot that happened at the CCDA National Conference – blessed and prophetic messages and workshops, disruption from the outcries of previous staffers who bravely came forward with their stories, and possible hope as things move forward.
I have been attending, supporter of, partner with CCDA for the last 12 years. It is an organization and community I love dearly. I also did not know all the stories as in depth as is laid out on the www.3rsRevisited.com website:
“Why isn’t a verbal apology or written statement enough?
The abuse and manipulation perpetuated by Noel, the CCDA board, and leadership cannot be undone with a simple statement of repentance. The harm done to the staff, especially to the women, has had a long lasting effect on their mental and emotional health, career opportunities and capacity to lead.”
I want to say I am sorry to my sisters and brothers who have experienced this pain and trauma.
I, myself, have worked under two massively toxic leaders, and the effects it has on your mental health, physical body, spirituality and relationship with God is devastating.
I want to say I’m sorry for not initially standing more strongly as things unfolded.
I took a stance of neutrality to find out more information so’s to not be hasty in any stance I take. I would encourage everyone to do the same – to collect information with an open mind, since all parties involved have their respective stories to tell.
It’s important to state, though, that once a certain level of receipts are collected and compared, there comes a time when a stance NEEDS to be taken. As an enneagram 9, this is difficult for me, especially when friendships and people I love and respect are on all sides of the conflict. However, this does not excuse to not ultimately stand for what’s right and just – no matter whether it’s your friend, lover, pastor, mentor, same ethnicity or gender, or whatever.
I stand with my sisters who have come forward, and other staffers whom I know have been hurt but have not publicly come forward.
I am in deep prayer for this watershed moment.
I pray for the leadership who are now needing to make wise decisions moving forward so that confession, repentance, healing, and reconciliation can happen.
I pray that the decisions made will be ones that are healthy and protective for future staffers and leaders moving forward. I pray the Board of Directors be wise and UNAFRAID to do what it right and just – that they would be an embodied example of all that CCDA teaches and preaches.
I pray for my strong, phenomenal friend Mayra Macedo-Nolan who has been doing so much work behind closed doors. She’s made mistakes, but is owning up to them, and I cannot express how thankful I am for her vulnerability and wisdom in all of this.
I pray for Noel and his family.
I have only had a positive and supportive relationship with him. However, this does not mean I am blindly loyal, as I will 99.99% of the time believe victims who come forward, especially being a victim myself.
Instead, I truly pray that in this painful time of relinquishing his power, of the humbling it takes to walk away from his position, that in this moment, God’s grace and mercy engulf him and his family.
I pray that he would hear from the Holy Spirit the wisdom and lessons God is trying to teach him. I pray he would be surrounded by both supporters and truth-tellers in his life.
I pray that through this painful experience, he would be able to emerge from it a wiser man who has more to give to the community because often failure stories are really the best stories to share – at least this is my belief and philosophy. People like victory stories, but really we learn a lot more from failed ones. It’s why, you know… the Bible.
I pray for us all as a community, that we be open to seeing that God is doing a subversive work in the world.
There is disruption EVERYWHERE and that cannot be a coincidence. May we be humble and ever more grounded to the Gospel and Jesus. May we walk and move forward more humbly, cautiously, and with greater self-examination and awareness of our flaws and vulnerabilities.
May this be the moment we show the world who Jesus truly is – to be the Church we are called to be. As one who acts justly, loves mercy, and walks humbly with our God.
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